Notes: Of Hope, Love, Patience and Uncertainties, Part 1.

1.

Stood by the sea

Sat by the sea

Walked by the sea

Three days passed so, flocks of birds passed above our heads and the briny air filled our lungs at the same time. The tidal waves crashed against the rocks, I felt the immensity of the collision in my nerves and my knees, I knew you did too. 

2.

You make me feel alive, like I can see life for light years ahead. Existing, breathing, being relevant. Being real. 

3.

Are we real? Or was our world a sham until we met each other? And now we're too real for the world to seem real or the world is a farce and we're the only thing that makes sense? Or do we exist in a different paradigm where the world ceases to?

4.

Difficult to find rationality

We're The little hope that's left of the world

Now that we're here, let's never go back

Because the world makes very little sense without you

5.

To laughing countless times till my ribs, my back and my stomach hurt with happiness and glee. 

6.

Singing like we would never sing again

we passed by the small streams and the lush green

you held my hands to get me to stop being stubborn

i rebelled and forgot the breaks

ready to run the slope fearless

next to you, i could never stop again.

7.

i see you in the light of day

hear your voice echo in my ears when i wake up

i see you standing at the end of roads we've never walked together

i see you sitting with my friends laughing at me, even though you have never met them

i see you nodding at paintings with me, even though you have never seen them

i see you sitting next to me in a train, holding my hand on our way home, 

even though our homes are in different cities.

8.

the uncertainties

So much time to see

oh the universe

please be good to me.

9.

never had they met, somehow still knew exactly how they felt

20 hours and 30 minutes

2 hours on a flight

some people don't seem right

even after a decade

but then there's one who is quite alright even after a day

oh pen pals of the digital age

counting down days in emails

just 1400kms away

never been close enough to hold each others hands

still memorized the warmth of each others breath.

would you believe it if i told you?

that at the age of 12, they looked out at the same moon at 2am every other night?

when they sang songs alone in their rooms,

they knew someone out there would listen and never cringe

they'd never been alone

still they danced to a hundred different songs arm and shoulder together

10.

Always thought i got my heart broken, a piece left behind with each one

so one day 

it'd be strong enough to 

fight for the love of my life.

I left a piece of me with each one that passed by and left me,

Unknowingly, however hoping someday, i'll find them, see them and remake those pieces all over again.

When i felt the emptiness of the incomplete pieces, 

i wrote you down before in different people, 

in conversations i never had,

in small specks of sunlight through thick lush leaves,

i'd see your  light

and now i finally see you

and you're helping bring back every piece,

each day,

in hopes of rebuilding something new together.