Erasure

I think about you so much 

But I don't think you've ever thought about me 

Lately all I feel is Erasure 

Seasons are changing

But here I stand, unchanged 

I remember it all 

Yet nothing at all 

I feel invisibilised 

I remember everything you did to me

And everything you didn't 

But I don't remember it like my own life

I feel like I'm haunted by the memories of a past life, or a borrowed one 

As if I never lived my own 

Was I just standing through it all? 

I wanna ask you so desperately

Why are you still haunting me? 

When I don't even cross your mind 

Or do I? 

If you ever read this 

Will you tell me? That after all these years, what was between us, mattered to you

That it changed you, like it changed me 

If you ever read this 

Like an unsent text message 

Will you reach out and tell me the truth? 

Maybe then I'd stop having these nightmares