Guide to FOMO and how to let it fuck you up.

What do you do with a heart that wants too much?
From experience?
Cut it out. Burn it. Take a bucket of water and drown it.
Till it stops beating.
Don't you think that's a bit too harsh, 
After all its only asking for a life. 
No, no
Its asking for your life.
Be careful. You're already dazed by it aren't you.
You like that it beats differently each day?
Its the rhythm, its so attractive, 
it keeps changing its pace, 
Oh! shake that wonder off your eyes!
The rhythm is meant to be learnt.
Its forbidden to experiment with.
Its demonic.
How dare you say that?
Its only innocence,
its wanderlust,
its the thirst for love,
its the want to create,
to submerge in music while dancing to another's verse
its to speak poetry before you can even 
understand a metaphor
Its to breathe a new wind in mountains un-trekked
and chase it till you grab it. 
Its to draw walls and walls to confuse anyone who tries to get it. 
Its to paint yourself in colors you feel.
How is any of this demonic?
Look at yourself, no really look.
What have you accomplished with a free heart
young girl?
*Silence.*
Ah. Good, you realize. Nothing.
You were given one heart,
to choose one.
Not to beat in every direction that made you smile.
Looks where its led you?
alone, in this room.
Forgetting reality, drowning in again in the same dreams
That have already failed you.
Look at your hands, they shiver
to hold those pencils, those brushes, to touch those strings.
Look at your feet, stumbling
to run, to dance.
Look at eyes, dim of hope
It takes you an hour just to get out of bed.
If that isn't demonic, then what it?
And yet, you want to repeat those mistakes again?
Well, what can I say?
What do you do with a heart that wants too much?